Here we go. I've never been much of a journal. I never really had a diary for longer than a month or so. But, I've had a change in my life, and I think its time to try a blog to help process the change.
I'm not looking for comments or for people to connect with--in fact, I really am not sure I am going to even look too make this really public. I'm just going to relate some stuff, and hope it helps me as I progress through this new trip. And it is a trip!
Nana has moved in with us. It has take a period of months to get her here. She's now been with us 24-7 for a couple of weeks. There is so much to having her here with us, some good, some not.
So, I'm writing for catharsis. Not judgement. It'll probably be more of a "what not to do", but it will be my ramblings. No more, no less. Just me spouting off, in the hopes that the little things can be over and done with, and not seriously impact the big things.
I've got a few mantras, or maxims that have served me well. This, too, shall pass. You catch more flies with honey than vinegar. Don't be borrowing trouble. Be more like a proton than an electron. Make like a duck. I've found these are harder to follow with Nana here. I've also found I need to talk about her/us, but my immediate family is not the best audience since they are also impacted by this. Having to listen to my ramblings/grumblings/amusement is just doubling the effect, I think.
What it is. I live with my husband and youngest daughter in a small home in Maine. Our elder daughter is a freshman in college. My husband's mother has moved in with us because of her advancing dementia. She is (only) 73 years old. To add to the mix, we have two terriers and a 5 month old golden retriever puppy. Nana brings with her a 2 yr old chihuahua mix.
Where I start. I guess I'm going to haphazardly share snippets, past and present. The funny, the crazy, the OMG. Some may not be pretty. I do not want to disparage any memories of Nana, and the woman she was. But this disease sucks. And sometimes, I suck at dealing with it. It must suck for Nana, but maybe she doesn't really know how bad.
